All The Reasons

So important to tell the people you love that you love them, and why you love them as well. The reasons might even be obvious to you, but they might not realize all of the things they do for you that seem so special and endearing.

Mama, I know your life is busy, but just for a few moments, stop, read and absorb each one of these non-exhaustive reasons why I love you.

I know I don’t always tell you. And sometimes I hurry about my day and forget to show you.

So, listen carefully and hear my voice as you linger on each one.

Please. Let the words sink in.

And know this. I will love you, always.

Because….

1.     You are truthful and vulnerable with me.

2.     You are courageous.

3.     You give me the kind of feeling people write novels about.

4.     I adore your kindness.

5.     I like the fact that we understand each other.

6.     You picked me!

7.     You are smoking hot!

8.     You always support me.

9.     You sacrifice and work so hard, without even realizing that you are.

10.            That I can just be myself with you.

11.            Because we can stay up late together just talking about anything and everything.

12.            You have always refused to give up on me.

13.            You have never allowed any distance to get between us or separate us. 

14.            I can always talk to you about anything. I do not have to worry about your reaction and if you will judge what I have to say.

15.            I can be completely weird and goofy with you in a way that I cannot be with anyone else.

16.            Because we can be in silence together and things do not get uncomfortable or boring even when it is quiet and nothing is going on. 

17.            For absolutely no reason at all. I just love you and that is all. Sometimes, love does not need to have a special reason. It just exists.

18.            Because I cannot even begin to imagine what my life would even be like without you. I could never go back to how things were before you.

19.            Because you can be so cute, especially when you are not trying. Most of the time you probably do not even realize how cute you are being.

20.            Because of the way in which you treat other people. You are such a kind person who does not look down on anyone.

21.            Because even though you are completely drop dead gorgeous on the outside, you are even more beautiful on the inside. 

22.            You listen to my problems when I listen to yours.

23.            You were meant to meet me at that exact time in our lives.

24.            You LISTEN to me and HEAR me.

25.            You never judge me.

26.            Just existing and rambling on about everything and i’m going to be here to listen. 

27.            You not only run in your dreams, you can control how well you run.

28.            You are simply Irresistible.

29.            You found me. You actually did.

30.            I love your voice.

31.            How fast you speak when excited or upset.

32.            How you tell me stories about your childhood and I imagine how you were back then.

33.            You’ll eat the things I don’t like.

34.            Your achievements.

35.            You are a real life sleeping beauty. No, seriously, my slumber queen.

36.            You get me hooked on songs you just won't stop singing/playing over and over and over and over and over and over again.

37.            You are playful with me and a little crazy (the "little" has nothing to do with fear for my safety).

38.            Have you seen how passionate you look as you sing when driving? It’s like you are in your own music video.

39.            Your pink lips!!!
40. The faces you make when you stretch.
41. The weird sound you make with your mouth for no reason.
42. For never being afraid to be silly with me.
43. Putting up with my unique sense of humor.
44. Your immense capacity to love, whether it's directed at me, your family, a mosquito or your hair.

...to be continued

As If They Needed Another Reason Not to Send Me to the Conference...

I find that whenever I'm at any kind of Conference, whenever there's a female speaker at the podium, all I can think about is how it would feel to go down on her.

Seriously. From the minute she steps on the stage to the minute she leaves, I just sit there, tracing the outline of her legs with my eyes, trying to pinpoint exactly where on her body I'd begin my descent, and mentally conjuring what her reactions might be.

Have I reached the point of irreversible perversion? Do other guys do this? Do women do this when watching men speaking at a conference?

The Blight

Welcome to the wounded world, little worm,
there’s no time to lose you have to latch on
to your carrion mother’s rotting teat.
   
Burrow away; nibble, wriggle, and squirm,
gnaw on– to this fetor that has you drawn
deeper in her gangrene ridden rib cage.
   
Sink your razor teeth in green oozing meat
and feed with flagitious greed to confirm
the legacy of all pestilent spawn.
   
Little worm, it’s your birth giver you eat;
you turn the world a matricidal stage
to perpetuate the taint of decay.
   
Welcome to earth, wounded by modern age;
putrefied by a plague still spread to this day.

vivacious endeavours

If I could run away from me and you,
I’d build myself a cottage on the coast. 
I’d tell myself the ocean’s waves of blue
come from the sunlight, not the tears of ghosts. 
The castles I would sculpt from shining sand
would keep me from my memories of home.
I’d trace your words into the solid land, 
to be swept up as tides gave way to gloam. 
The sea is more chaotic than my mind,
and wild enough for me to write for years–
with terror, peace, and madness there to find
the sea might let me bury our shared fears.
But in my heart I know that it’s not true.
Each image takes my mind back home to you. 

i think i fell in love with you tonight

i think i fell in love with you tonight
on the doorstep where you kissed me good night
after a dance that made me feel alright,
and your small smile reflected the moonlight.

amidst all of this trying summer heat,
you kindled my spark into a high flame,
and for one moment we shared a heartbeat,
so i realized i’d never be the same.

this night, it’s right; it made me feel alive
with your hand tugging gently on my own
as to heaven you lead me to arrive:
it’s a place where we’ll never be alone

tonight: a kiss, the next day a goodbye.
the ship we sailed i will have to untie.

an actual sonnet

How can she seem to have fallen from heaven
when I’m the one that has fallen,
the one that’s all in,
while her mind is a weapon

And God, I am already in too deep
because she is just too beautiful
and everything I seek
while I’m a fool

And while she is kissing all those boys
that appear to her as pretty toys
my heart tattoos cries of desperation against my ribs

How should I ever enjoy life’s sweet kiss
when she is everything I miss
and most of all her gorgeous lips?

Another Reason Friday Rocks

Today is Friday, which is casual day at my place of employ. This means that, even as I type these words, pretty much every woman from 18 to 52 who works in our financial division is wedging herself into low-slung, too-tight jeans. This is not a day for me to be making decisions that could affect the fate of our organization or my position within it. That's what Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday and Thursday are for. Today, I just slip it into neutral, and soak it all in.

The trick to getting the full show: Slide a manila folder under your arm. That's your "hall pass," so to speak. As you wander aimlessly through any place of business, so long as you're carrying a manila folder, peeps figure you've obviously transporting something of grave importance. This is particularly critical to getting into the IT wing, where many a cute young lass waits. And very likely bent over a server. Bonus!

Er, hold my calls.